To Jeanette McPherrin
I am very much in arrear, but I did not want to write again until I had been to Northampton, the Sunday before I left; and the remaining days were crammed with relatives and duty calls. I suppose I could have written on the boat, but apart from the depression of Get-Together Night, Gala Night, and Auld Lang Syne Night, I can’t express myself properly on bits of note paper and without a typewriter.
When I first saw Emily I thought her very much changed, chiefly in the lack of any animation, in a kind of numbness to the external world, a narrowing of her field of awareness, and a tendency (though one has noticed this before) to think about her own shortcomings all the time. In a person who ordinarily gives out so much to others, this is very painful. She wanted help, but she had that readiness to accept everything one said as true, which shows low vitality (it is always distressing, and sometimes alarming, to have people accept everything one says). WhileAmericaWoods Hole, Falmouth, Massachusetts;i2TSE and EH's holiday in recalled;a2 we were visiting her friends at Woods Hole, I thought she picked up a bit; andAmericaNorthampton, Massachusetts;g3TSE's 1936 visit to;a5 when I went down to Northampton to see her I thought she was a good deal better. She had not begun to show any lively interest in the work she was to do, but I hope and believe that that will come. I do not believe that there is anything settled in her depression, and I think that it will pass in the course of the work, and getting to know the better girls, and making friends locally: though of course to go through any such phase must make a mark on anybody. If she should seem to you perhaps in correspondence remote or vague, remember that it is a general phenomenon and has nothing to do with you any more than with anyone else.
Itravels, trips and plansEH's 1937 summer in England;c7;a3 have rather mixed feelings about her spending next summer in Campden with the [sic] Perkins’s. I wish that she could be with more vital and younger people, no matter where, instead of under what seems to me a rather suffocating influence upon her. And I doubt even whether Dr. Perkins’s rather woolly counsels are very invigorating for her.
I am always happy to hear from you, remember.
2.JeanetteMcPherrin, Jeanette McPherrin (1911–92), postgraduate student at Scripps College; friend of EH: see Biographical Register.