[240 Crescent St., Northampton, Mass.]
I must write you a line tonight, though there is no boat for three days – butShakespeare, WilliamHamlet;b6 IOld Vic, TheOlivier's (complete) Hamlet;a8 am going to Hamlet complete tomorrow night, and if I can write on Wednesday, as I probably can, there will be other things to say – to thank you for your letter of the 6th, andWare, Mary Leesuffers stroke;c5 to say how sorry I am to have your news about Miss Ware.1 It also goes to explain why you did not get away, and gives another reason besides those I know of, why your Christmas holiday was not a period of complete rest and refreshment. She is, I imagine, a person of great vitality, and so may recover from this attack: on the other hand it is sometimes more painful to see people of strong vitality attacked beyond their strength. I can understand your affection for her, and I know that she has had a useful part in your life that no other relative could have played. So I shall pray, unknowing what is happening, for her recovery.
ISmith CollegeEH unhappy with work at;b5 can also understand your despondency about your work; but dear, remember that this kind of despondency is caused by something quite outside your work, and is not a rational criticism of what you have done, and so you must struggle against it, not so much by thinking against despondency, and trying to surpass yourself in order to satisfy yourself – but by quietly forgetting all about your doubts, so far as you can, and thinking of the work and the girls for whom you are working, rather than how well or badly you are doing it. Often, at such times, other people may judge that you are doing better than ever. It is not always when one feels most sure of oneself that one is doing one’s best. If I could talk to you tonight I am sure I could persuade you and encourage you: let me feel that I can do something even with the typewriter and at ten days remove.
1.Mary Lee Ware, EH’s host at Brimmer Street, had suffered a paralysing stroke on 5 Jan.
3.MaryWare, Mary Lee Lee Ware (1858–1937), independently wealthy Bostonian, friend and landlady of EH at 41 Brimmer Street: see Biographical Register.