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[Shamley Wood, Shamley Green]
Letter 15.
Your letter of the 26th April was awaiting me on my return: that is to say, on my return to Shamley, for I arrived back in London late Tuesday evening, and only returned to Shamley at the end of the week. So I shall want to read it several times more before answering, which I will do at this coming weekend: it is that I want to be as clear as I can be – and that is perhaps not very clear – what is at the back of your mind. ISecond World Warits effect on TSE;b3 can after all only guess at what changes these six years may have worked in you: in myself, I am only aware of a feeling of having greatly aged. But at the moment I am extremely tired, which is another reason for not answering at once. Thetravels, trips and plansTSE's May 1945 trip to Paris;f4described;a7 nineFranceParis;b7post-war;a8 days in Paris were a very great strain: I hasten to say that my reception was very friendly indeed, and the hospitality very great – especially considering the lack of food and high prices of everything, it was lavish. But even the kindness and deference, and being addressed as ‘maître’ – a charming form in itself – made me feel either that I was a returning ghost, or that I had come to a city of ghosts. The spotless perfection of Paris, undamaged in the war, and so different from dirty crumbling London, had something unreal about it. I felt great admiration for them, and great respect, because of all the horrors they had gone through, so much more nightmarish, and so very different, from ours. But it will be a long time before France recovers from this nightmare, and I fear that [they] have much trial and disturbance to go through first. TheSecond World WarGermany's surrender;f5 victorySecond World WarVE Day;f6 celebrations were very quiet1 – they trooped to the Arc de Triomphe – the tomb of the Unknown Soldier – but there was no hilarity.
Besides'Social Function of Poetry, The';a9 having to give a lecture in French, I had to do three broadcast interviews – two of them unrehearsed – in the same language; attend a number of receptions – which means standing for two or three hours and being introduced to one person after another; two dinner parties, several luncheons; and talks with reporters after breakfast.2 IMurder in the Cathedral1945 Théâtre du Vieux Colombier production;g2;a1 had no time to go to the theatre. I may have to go again in a few days, in the middle of June, forFluchère, Henrihis translation of Murder;a2 the first night of ‘Meurtre dans la Cathédrale’ (translation by Henri Fluchère) at the Théâtre du Vieux Colombier, though at the moment I do not feel up to that. Also, travelling by sea, it took 18 hours to get there!
I have had the Whitsun weekend at Shamley, but during the first three days I did nothing – the weather had turned cooler and cloudy, so there was not much sitting in the sun. I shall probably come here for weekends through the summer, and meanwhile I hope to find, or hope that someone will find for me, some furnished lodgings in London, though it is more than anyone can expect now, to get something one really likes. But, though very tired, always with very much love.
1.Germany surrendered to the Allies on 8 May 1945.
2.TSE was in Paris, 5–15 May; he lectured on ‘Le Rôle social des poètes’: CProse 6, 436–46.