[1418 East 63d St., Seattle]
I have got back from lunch, and have not yet been called away, so, not knowing what time I shall have on Wednesday Thursday or Friday, I am starting a letter to you, having got off my note by the air mail at 1:20. IEliot, Vivien (TSE's first wife, née Haigh-Wood)drug habits;e7sleeping draughts;a1 am awaiting because V. is or should be with her doctor in Harley Street, and he may ring up to say he wants to see me too. (There is no particular crisis, only the visit has been postponed for a long time, and there is the usual question of excessive quantity of sleeping draught – as the cook had taken sudden leave yesterday in a quite unjustifiable temper – a good riddance though a very good cook – and as the w. c. cistern had gone out of order over the weekend, she rather overdid it last night and I found her during the night on the kitchen floor, having suddenly decided to shell all the peas for today, and fallen off a chair putting them away). ThenWoolf, Virginia;a6 we are supposed to go to Virginia’s for tea; tomorrowMorrell, Lady Ottolinechez Eliot to meet Nora Joyce;a3 LadyEliots, the T. S.invite OM to meet Mrs Joyce;b1 Ottoline comes to tea to meet Mrs. Joyce,1 ThursdayJoyce, Luciato lunch with TSE's nieces and Barbara Hutchinson;a1 mySmith, Theodora ('Dodo') Eliot (TSE's niece)to lunch with Lucia Joyce and Barbara Hutchinson;a3 niecesSmith, Charlotte ('Chardy') Stearns (TSE's niece)to lunch with Lucia Joyce and Barbara Hutchinson;a2 toHutchinson, Barbarato lunch with TSE's nieces and Lucia Joyce;a1 lunchEliots, the T. S.introduce TSE's nieces to Lucia Joyce and Barbara Hutchinson;b2 with Lucia Joyce2 and Barbara Hutchinson,3 who are the nearest contemporaries of theirs we can muster. IOgden, Charles Kay ('C. K.')his recording of Anna Livia Plurabelle;a2 have been lunching with C. K. Ogden toJoyce, JamesAnna Livia Plurabelle;e4Joyce's recording of;a1 discuss Joyce’s gramaphone [sic] record with him – a wholly disinterested activity on my part – Ogden had the record made (a recitation by Joyce of Anna Livia Plurabelle – if you have a gramaphone at 41 Brimmer Street please let me know and I will have a copy sent to you, it is very good);4 they are two of the most disorderly and unbusinesslike men I know, and accordingly they both complain of each other for being unbusinesslike, and I cannot make head or tail of it. Ogden’sOgden, Charles Kay ('C. K.')the state of his rooms;a3 rooms are probably the most amazingly littered in the world, books and papers everywhere, letters to be answered usually skewered to the wall with pen nibs, photographs of everyone under the sun, three or four wireless sets (at least one going all the time), any number of gramophones, and various strange electrical inventions supposed to reproduce the human voice, and looking very dangerous and explosive, and all sorts of charts, diagrams etc. dealing with something called Basic English. HeOgden, Charles Kay ('C. K.')described;a4 is a friend of Richards, looks like Mr. Pickwick, and behaves like Mrs. Jellaby [sc. Jellyby].5
I like what your friend said about human relations having their fitness and importance in their place and time. I think too that it always takes time to distinguish the intensity or an experience from its profundity. The intensity may always be related as much to time and place and to one’s own emotional and mental state and stage of development as to an essential sympathy; and I think that often nothing but duration of time can tell us how permanently another person matters, or how permanently one matters to any other person. But transient relationships can be of the greatest value. I cannot, myself, conceive of anyone really falling in love twice: but in the most intimate of relationships human beings seem to me to vary so much that I am willing to believe that some people can. But we all, I think, have had friendships which were only possible for particular conditions …
FRIDAY (24 July): this is the first opportunity to continue that I have had; and your dear letter of the 13th has just come – I mean it came yesterday; and a German publisher is coming in to see me, andSitwell, Edithbrings Pavel Tchelitchew to tea;a7 ITchelitchew, Pavel;a1 cannot be here this afternoon because Edith Sitwell is bringing a Russian painter to tea, so I must write very fast.6 AndHinkleys, thein London;a4 I believe the Hinkleys7 are actually in London – it is rather sudden; IHinkley, Eleanor Holmes (TSE's first cousin)announces presence in London;a2 have a letter from Eleanor only this morning.8 And now your letter makes it necessary to drop all other subjects. First, I admit that I ought now to be less subject to waves of dejection; I admit the weakness, and shall amend. I am and shall be always happy when you reprove me and also when you criticise frankly anything I do or write; because after all your[s] is the only human approval I want in any way, and I like to feel sure that whenever the alternative forces itself you would be candid rather than kind: though no one could be more gentle than you.
Now, I am thankful too that you should gradually – as quickly as possible – ask me about anything that is not clear in your mind. Even in a relationship like ours, and particularly when its only means is correspondence, there is opportunity for misunderstanding; and one is always in danger of taking for granted that the other understands everything without its being said. Well, my dear, your question puzzled me and still puzzles me, and I must try first to understand it. At first I felt hurt, but I know that that can only mean that I misunderstood. So I must fumble about and explain as best I can without understanding what is in your mind. I had been bottled up for a long time. WhenHale, EmilyTSE's love for;x2first felt in 1913;a7 I fell in love with you was one evening when the Hinkleys had a very small party – PenelopeNoyes, Penelope Barkerpresent when TSE fell for EH;a4 and there must have been one or two men but I forget who – and we acted some impromptu charade in which I stepped on your feet. All I knew at the moment, being very undeveloped and never having had any such experience before, was that I wanted dreadfully to see you again; andHale, Emilyas actor;v8in the 'stunt show' with TSE;a6 it was only when the ‘stunt show’ was proposed and I knew that I should be able to see you once a week for some time that I began to realise what had happened to me.9 AfterHale, EmilyTSE's love for;x2recognised by TSE the night of Tristan und Isolde;a8 thatWagner, RichardTristan und Isolde;a3which confirmed TSE's love for EH;a2 night at the opera I was completely conscious of it, and quite shaken to pieces.10 AllHale, EmilyTSE's love for;x2TSE's reasons for not declaring in 1913;a9 those years I suffered from two notions: first that I was hopelessly unattractive and ineligible for you (of course that is an adolescent state of mind which is reprehensible, because a man in love should not think about his attractiveness either way); and second, a damned distorted conscience told me that I had no right to make love to anybody until I was in sight of being able to support her. It did not seem to me right even to let you know that I loved you; and I was very depressed about my qualifications for making a living as a professor. Even little things affected me like this: I expected that the best I could get would be an appointment in some obscure provincial college; and I felt that a man with such poor prospects, and no hope of giving you the surroundings that you ought to have, had no right to ask you to marry him. There was one occasion on which all this nonsense did nearly break down – I had planned and plotted for some time to see you two days in succession; so I asked you to the football game (and was very much surprised that you accepted) and then arranged a teaparty entirely for the purpose of seeing you. And at the end of the Saturday afternoon, when I took you home, I was so down in the mouth to think those delirious two days were over – it all seemed over – that I nearly spoke to you. I cannot allow my mind to dwell long on such thoughts: a kind of dizziness overcomes me and interferes with my ability to carry on my daily life.
IHale, EmilyTSE's love for;x2what TSE said instead of declaring;b1 said, that last evening: ‘I can’t ask anything, because I have nothing to offer’. That meant simply ‘I cannot ask you to become engaged to me, I cannot try to induce you to love me, because I am still so far away from being self-supporting’. You should know that my only ambition and goal in life was that I might ask you to marry me.
And now, I ask you in return, what was in your mind in asking this question? Have I answered it or not? Please tell me, because, really and truly, I still do not understand what you meant; and what I have just told you, it is difficult for me not to believe that you knew already.
And now I shall stop at this point; and I shall continue my ordinary letter on Monday. I shall hope, then to have another letter from you telling me that you have received at least one Air Mail letter from me. How soon it will be time to write to Boston again! I dare say you will be sorry. I am not sure whether the Perkins’s are to be in Boston one more winter – I do hope so. By the way, what a marvellous carpenter and builder your uncle must be.
My heart is too full of you even to find words of any use, my dear, my dear, my dear, my most beautiful lady.
You say your bewildering question ‘relates to other things’: naturally I want to know what things.11
1.OM’s journal (BL Add. MS 88886/4/28): 23 July:
ThenMorrell, Lady Ottolineon tea with the Eliots;a4n I walked to Mr Eliot where I was going to tea to meet Joyce. I was nervous .. as I never know what I may say that might offend them -- & Tom is odd .. & I feel I don’t know him now or what he thinks. I talked of people being so unhuman, & so making it difficult to talk to.
I was so afraid he would think I was talking at him that I had [to] drag in people like Lytton.
Then we talked on. He showed me his poem & asked my opinion about the Type which I didn’t like.
Then Mrs Joyce came & sat like an Image .. hardly talked at all … like most women .. Fat, placid & I expect a good Manager. We waited & waited .. Joyce I thought wasnt coming after all.
But at last the Bell rang & T. & V. ran out & opened the door … & looked at me as if the King was Entering .. with a look as much as to say “Arise & greet His Majesty” --.
MyMorrell, Lady Ottolinefirst impression of Joyce;a5n impression was that he was younger than I had imagined him … & that he has beautiful feet and hands … & was very aristocratic. He is very blind - & they had to guide him. He asked my pardon as he wanted to talk to Tom about something – so I turned aside. What it was I couldn’t hear. Their voices are so low, indeed I couldn’t hear much of what he & Tom talked about at all […] They spoke of a Sculptor, a Roumanian […] & he asked Tom if he would sit for him .. He wants the man to do a bust of himself & of James Stephens - in one, head to head
He turned to me & said You know he is my Twin. Yes I know I replied.
ThenAsh WednesdayOM compares to Anna Livia Plurabelle;a5n .. we had the record of his reading of Anna Livia Plurabelle on the Gramophone. It was marvellously beautiful & moving. He has a wonderful voice … I really felt very moved by it.
Then he asked Tom to read his Poem [Ash-Wednesday] & he did. It has beauty but not great beauty & I found it rather cheap & derivative .. not really rich & creative like Joyce’s.
ItMorrell, Lady Ottolineon TSE as 'modern';a6n is rather a mechanical Trick. To be odd & modern .. & there isn’t a real fountain there only mental Jigsaw – fitting pattern to pattern. –
He is more of a mosaic worker than a Singer …
When one reads Milton I feel how magnificent rich & beautiful he is compared to such thin . [liverish?] men as Tom.
But at the same time I think Joyce is very great.
2.LuciaJoyce, Lucia Joyce (1907–82), daughter of James Joyce – trained as a dancer, talented as an illustrator – was deemed to suffer from schizophrenia and in consequence spent much of her life incarcerated in asylums. See Carol Loeb Schloss, Lucia Joyce: To Dance in the Wake (2003).
3.BarbaraHutchinson, Barbara Hutchinson (1911–89); later wife of Victor Rothschild, 3rd Baron Rothschild; subsequently wife of the writer Rex Warner.
4.C. K. Ogden recorded Joyce reading ‘Anna Livia Plurabelle’ (from Finnegans Wake) at his Orthological Institute in Cambridge, England. In an introductory note to Introducing James Joyce: a selection of Joyce’s prose (1942), TSE noted of Finnegans Wake: ‘I think … that most readers of that massive work would agree to the choice of the passage which was published separately, before the completion of the whole work, as Anna Livia Plurabelle. This fantasy of the course of the river Liffey is the best-known part of Finnegans Wake, and is the best introduction to it. It was recorded by the author: I have found that the gramophone record of the author’s voice reciting it revealed at once a beauty which is disclosed only gradually by the printed page’ (6–7). Later, in ‘The Approach to James Joyce’, he noted too: ‘Joyce’s last book has to be read aloud, preferably by an Irish voice; and, as the one gramophone record which he made attests, no other voice could read it, not even another Irish voice, as well as Joyce could read it himself’ (The Listener, 14 Oct. 1943, 446–7).
5.Mrs Jellyby, a figure of satirical fun in Charles Dickens’s Bleak House (1852–3).
6.The Russian painter was Pavel Tchelitchew (1898–1957), with whom Sitwell was in love.
7.TSE’s maternal aunt Susan Heywood Hinkley, née Stearns (1860–1948), and her second daughter Eleanor Holmes Hinkley (1891–1971).
8.Not found: not in Eliot Archive.
9.TheHinkley, Eleanor Holmes (TSE's first cousin)adaptation of Emma;g3central to TSE falling for EH;a1 ‘stunt show’ – in which TSE and EH and other friends acted out scenes from Eleanor Hinkley’s adaptation of Jane Austen’s Emma – took place on 17 Feb. 1913 and is described by Lyndall Gordon (1999, 78). See also Frances Dickey, ‘May the Record Speak’, 458, n. 7.
10.Dickey, ibid., 458, n. 8: ‘Eliot’sWagner, RichardTristan und Isolde;a3dating this occasion;a3n biographers have speculated about when he might have attended Tristan. The Boston Opera premiered Wagner’s work on November 29, 1913 (reviewed in the Boston Globe on November 30), and it is likely that Hale’s uncle Philip, music critic for the Boston Herald, procured tickets for Hale and several friends, including Margaret Farrand (Thorp) as well as Eliot, for one of these performances.’
See'Opera'and watching Wagner with EH;a1n too TSE’s early verses, entitled ‘Opera’:
Tristan and Isolde
And the fatalistic horns
The passionate violins
And ominous clarinet;
And love torturing itself
To emotion for all there is in it.
Wishing in and out
Contorted in paroxysms,
Flinging itself at the last
Limits of self-expression.
We have the tragic? Oh no!
Life departs with a feeble smile
Into the indifferent
These emotional experiences
Do not hold good at all,
And I feel like the ghost of youth
At the undertakers’ ball.
11.Postscript added by hand.
5.EleanorHinkley, Eleanor Holmes (TSE's first cousin) Holmes Hinkley (1891–1971), playwright; TSE’s first cousin; daughter of Susan Heywood Stearns – TSE’s maternal aunt – and Holmes Hinkley: see Biographical Register.
1.JamesJoyce, James Joyce (1882–1941), Irish novelist, playwright, poet; author of A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man (1916), Ulysses (1922), Finnegans Wake (1939).
2.LuciaJoyce, Lucia Joyce (1907–82), daughter of James Joyce – trained as a dancer, talented as an illustrator – was deemed to suffer from schizophrenia and in consequence spent much of her life incarcerated in asylums. See Carol Loeb Schloss, Lucia Joyce: To Dance in the Wake (2003).
4.LadyMorrell, Lady Ottoline Ottoline Morrell (1873–1938), hostess and patron: see Biographical Register.
12.PenelopeNoyes, Penelope Barker Barker Noyes (1891–1977), who was descended from settlers of the Plymouth Colony, lived in a historic colonial house (built in 1894 for her father James Atkins Noyes) at 1 Highland Street, Cambridge, MA. Unitarian. She was a close friend of EH.
1.C. K. OgdenOgden, Charles Kay ('C. K.') (1889–1957), psychologist, linguist, polymath, was educated at Magdalene College, Cambridge, where in 1912 he founded Cambridge Magazine and co-founded (1911) the Heretics. He went on to devise ‘Basic English’ – ‘an auxiliary international language’ based on a vocabulary of just 850 English words – ‘BASIC’ being an acronym for British American Scientific International Commercial; and in 1927 he established in London the Orthological (Basic English) Institute. Works include The Foundations of Aesthetics (with I. A. Richards and James Wood, 1921), The Meaning of Meaning (with IAR, 1923), and Basic English (1930); and with F. P. Ramsey he translated the Logisch-Philosophische Abhandlung of Ludwig Wittgenstein (Tractatus Logico-Philosophicus, 1922). He was editor of the psychological journal Psyche, and he edited the series ‘The International Library of Psychology, Philosophy and Scientific Method’. See W. Terrence Gordon, C. K. Ogden: a bio-bibliographical study (1990); C. K. Ogden: A Collective Memoir, ed. P. Sargant Florence and J. R. L. Anderson (1977).
2.EdithSitwell, Edith Sitwell (1887–1964), poet, biographer, anthologist, novelist: see Biographical Register.
2.TheodoraSmith, Theodora ('Dodo') Eliot (TSE's niece) Eliot Smith (1904–92) – ‘Dodo’ – daughter of George Lawrence and Charlotte E. Smith: see Biographical Register. Theodora’sSmith, Charlotte ('Chardy') Stearns (TSE's niece) sister was Charlotte Stearns Smith (b. 1911), known as ‘Chardy’.
2.TheodoraSmith, Theodora ('Dodo') Eliot (TSE's niece) Eliot Smith (1904–92) – ‘Dodo’ – daughter of George Lawrence and Charlotte E. Smith: see Biographical Register. Theodora’sSmith, Charlotte ('Chardy') Stearns (TSE's niece) sister was Charlotte Stearns Smith (b. 1911), known as ‘Chardy’.
1.VirginiaWoolf, Virginia Woolf (1882–1941), novelist, essayist and critic: see Biographical Register.