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I am fortunate in finding no committee this Thursday afternoon, and so have time for a line to you; forCrofton, Harry C.lunches with TSE on New Year's Day;a3 I shall have but little time tomorrow morning as I have to lunch with Harry Crofton at 12 o’clock at the St. James’s Club; andSitwell, Edithto tea on New Year's Day;a8 Edith Sitwell is coming to tea in the afternoon. So I send you my ‘Happy New Year’ wishes on New Year’s Eve, wondering platitudinously what it will bring, for you and for me and for others. I find the transit from one year to the next, the simple changing of one figure at the end of the date, a rather terrifying movement. The past has done so much to one – of course with some blessings as well as with agony – that was the last thing one expected in life. And often the good as well as the bad was the last thing that one would have desired, at some time or other in the past. NowChristianitymysticism and transcendence;c3intimations of life's 'pattern';a2 and then, but rarely, I get flashes of perception of a kind of ‘pattern’ in life, in my life, which are like mystical moments; flashes which do not give peace ‘as the world gives’1 but which, while they last, reconcile one to all the mystery of fault and suffering the past. Just as still more rarely, at other times, I have had a kind of flash of anticipation of my future, in a very general way, and in a way which neither makes possible, or even desirable, that we should alter our course in any way. What a cumbrous and confused sentence. But I do take such feelings seriously.
Well, my dear, this is a poor note; please accept it in the knowledge that my short scraps convey with them all the emotion of my longer, and of my apparently more personal and emotional letters. The Year is at hand.
– à la bonne année à Emilie.
1.‘Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid’ (John 14: 27).
1.HarryCrofton, Harry C. C. Crofton (d. 1938), was the senior of the four managers of the Colonial and Foreign Department. HisCrofton, Harry C.TSE remembered by his son;a2n son John told the Archivist of Lloyds Bank, 1 Aug. 1980: ‘I have memories of my father inviting T. S. for several week-ends to our home. My mother … used to speak of him and of how much they enjoyed his visits. (If I may add that in those days it was a little unusual for the Chief Foreign Manager to invite “a clerk” for week-ends!!!) I do know that the object of the visits from my father’s side, was to persuade T. S. to give up the Bank and devote himself to his obvious real calling.’
2.EdithSitwell, Edith Sitwell (1887–1964), poet, biographer, anthologist, novelist: see Biographical Register.