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Letter 26.
ICanadaGrand Manan Island, New Brunswick;a2EH holidays on;a2 have your letter of July 11, and accordingly address you at Grand Manan, though with a certain misgiving, lest it should be slow and just miss you there: the trouble with your summers is that by the time I know that you are somewhere you are somewhere else. HowHale, Emilycorrespondence with TSE;w3constrained by war;g8 right you are about my being cautious: I am quite aware of this foible, but I can’t overcome it. ButSecond World WarV-1 Cruise Missile strikes;e5 at first one hardly dared mention having even seen a flybomb, lest it should seem to give some clue to where they were dropping: now London is mentioned as being in the area. One becomes more used to them – except when they are proceeding directly over one’s head. InFaber and Faber (F&F)fire-watching duties at;e6 ‘fire-watching’ we divide into shifts (in London I mean), being on duty 2½ hours at some part of the night, and one may get several hours sleep: and this is only one night a week. As yet, I have spent only the Tuesday nights in town. What must be admitted is the feeling of relief when the sound indicates that the bomb is going to hit somebody else: one is ashamed of it, but goes on feeling it. But this does not happen too often. ButSecond World Warprognostications as to its end;e2, as things have been going, it seems as if the end of the war might come quickly, in advance of the extermination of the bomb-sites: and that will be the strangest experience of all. Perhapstravels, trips and plansTSE's abortive 1944 North Africa mission;f3;a7 I shall not be going to Africa after all: the scene of such activities may too soon shift to Paris.
I am glad to think of you getting out of Boston, with the humid heat you tell of. IHinkley, Eleanor Holmes (TSE's first cousin)TSE feels remote from;d1 am pleased that Eleanor should want to have a party for you. It must be five years at least since I have had a word from her. I get the impression (confidential) that relations between her and my family are not too good: she has been suspected of trying to ‘make mischief’ between the members of my family in Cambridge. But it is so long since I have been in touch with her that I don’t feel I know in the least what she is like now.
Youdogs'Boerre' (Norwegian Elkhound);b7dies;e3 may be sure that I was deeply grieved to learn of the death of Boerre – and through a piece of such culpable carelessness. It is better that this should have happened after you relinquished him, than before: yet that is not as much consolation as it rationally would be. All I can say is, that when you can have a successor to him, I hope that I may have the same share as with Bøerre: otherwise, I shall feel rather jealous and resentful of the intruder.
WhatHale, Emilyas teacher;w1EH thinks of giving up;d6 you said in your previous letter, of which I should like a fuller explanation, was that you intended to give up teaching after this coming year. I shall be glad if that is possible, especially as nothing that has been offered you has been what you really wanted: but I wonder whether that means that you have some other kind of work in view, or whether you mean to retire on your very exiguous income? or what? ButBooks Across the Sea;b1 you do speak of ‘books Across the Sea’, even if perhaps playfully. You would be surprised to know what a meagre existence that leads – so far as the London circle is concerned: it is only possible because of a few devoted women who live here anyway, and have other means. What its future will be after the war, I do not know, but it needs some wealthy benefactor to set it properly on its feet – I believe there is a function it could perform. However, I shan’t consider this, or anything else, seriously until I know more clearly what you have in mind for the future.
You need not think of parcels. ISecond World Warrationing;b7 have sometimes had parcels from Marian and Henry; butcheeseand the privations of war;b4 really, thealcohol'dry sherry' and rationing;c6 things one has most craved for are things you can’t supply – such as cheese (I mean good cheese), dry sherry, marmalade. In clothing etc. you are rationed just as we are: I have sometimes wished that it was permissible to send coffee to America – not that English coffee is good – as we have had no shortage of that, or indeed of tea, though that is rationed, and of course [it] is not very good tea. But I especially, with a foot in the country, am very well off for food; and fortunately my wardrobe was particularly well supplied at the beginning of the war.
ISecond World Warits effect on TSE;b3 don’t think that I have become more self-centred: I confess I seem to myself rather less self-centred than I was, say fifteen years ago; but perhaps what you mean is, more encased in a shell. I do believe that these five years have had a withering effect – as well as aging one more rapidly. Let me hope that the autumnal grass can still revive in favourable weathers: if we can have fifteen or twenty years of greater security and settled life – a period during which it will be possible to think ahead – and in which the things which I am best qualified to do, will seem both possible and worth doing.
YouSeaverns, Helen;e4 haven’t sent Mrs. Seaverns’s address.
5.EleanorHinkley, Eleanor Holmes (TSE's first cousin) Holmes Hinkley (1891–1971), playwright; TSE’s first cousin; daughter of Susan Heywood Stearns – TSE’s maternal aunt – and Holmes Hinkley: see Biographical Register.
3.HelenSeaverns, Helen Seaverns, widow of the American-born businessman and Liberal MP, Joel Herbert Seaverns: see Biographical Register.