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I do not think I have ever allowed such a long time to elapse without writing any private letters. I owe letters to all my family, some of them since December. But I have never had such a number of details to attend to, at the same time as feeling utterly exhausted. That is largely due to my illness, I suppose, though I am very much better now; though I should probably have experienced this overpowering fatigue anyway, after the end of the war and the sharpening of anxieties public and private. Also it has been increased by having had to live in such an unsettled way (and under conditions in which I knew that any illness that meant staying in bed would be almost impossible to deal with – you can’t get in to hospitals or nursing homes) and having one problem after another concerned with the flat to deal with. And apart from business, there have been the usual engagements which I could not decline: the'Unity of European Culture, The';a4 whole of my last three weekends was taken up with preparing the three broadcast talks for Germany. These are now done, and are being translated: so this Saturday morning I have the unusual freedom of being able to sit down and write this letter – I have only had the evenings to write in, whengames, diversionssolitaire patience;a1 I feel too tired to do more than fiddle with a book, play a game of patience, and go to bed.
Anyway19 Carlyle Mansions, Londonalmost habitable;a9, the situation now is this: that I am going to start sleeping in the flat tomorrow night, andMme Frenay;a2 shall test Madame Frenay’s cooking. ItHayward, Johnand Carlyle Mansions;m1 is now just habitable, except for John’s quarters. There are only temporary carpets, and curtains for only four windows, and the curtains in my room are too wide and too short, and will have to be cut up and resewn as soon as possible. There are gas heaters working in two rooms, and electric in the others. The corridors are bare boards. I have bought a couple of standard lamps for myself. My14 Elvaston Place, LondonTSE removing himself from;a5 books are to be moved in a week from now, and I shall move my clothes from Elvaston Place as and when I can. For the next week or two I shall have to continue sending my washing from Elvaston Place, until we find a laundry which will call in Chelsea: most laundries now will not undertake to call oftener than every two or three weeks, some keep the washing for a month. The things one has to buy are very expensive (14s. for an ordinary broom, and 25s. for a platerack!) and one seldom gets exactly what one wants; and many things one cannot buy at all. PeopleCodrington, Primrose (née Harley);a2 are very good about lending: I should not be able to sleep there but for some blankets lent by Mrs. Codrington, andVansittart, Lady Sarita Enriqueta (née Ward);a2 some pillows and sheets lent by Lady Vansittart (friends of John’s). ToKennerley, Jean;a2 get a dustbin I have had to get Jean Kennerley, who used to live in Chelsea and knows all the tradespeople, to go in to Timothy White’s in the King’s Road (for the Kennerleys, like me and everyone else who has just moved anywhere, have no prospect of a telephone for at least six months) and ask the manager to keep a bin for a friend of theirs, out of the next lot he gets in.
I think Madame Frenay promises well; she has lived in England for twentyfive years, so that her cooking may have deteriorated: but she gives me the impression of being an economical manager. Also, she is cheerful and pleasant.
There are of course problems to be solved over gas, electricity etc. and the Electrolux refrigerator which may or may not be reparable.
Itravels, trips and planspossible post-war American visit;f6waits on TSE's health and Carlyle Mansions;a8 tell you all this because it may give a faint impression of why I cannot, just yet, even begin to find out about passages to America. I should really consider it irresponsible of me to make definite engagements in America at this stage. You say ‘other people keep engagements’, but I don’t think people should make engagements when they do not know whether they can keep them. In my present state of fatigue, I cannot look forward to the trip as anything in the nature of a holiday. If I get a fortnight altogether under restful conditions I shall be lucky. The commerce with New York publishers and authors will be wearing; IBooks Across the Sea;b9 can hardly escape some public engagements with Books Across the Sea in New York; IPound, Ezravisited by TSE in Washington;d4 shall have to go to Washington for a day or two to see Pound, andLibrary of Congress, Washington;a1 I can’t well go to Washington without seeing the Library of Congress people. Americans are so full of energy and expect the same of others; they love public affairs, speeches and talks, and I shall have to fight tenaciously and at the same time tactfully in order to avoid being completely worn out. For one thing, I am better known than I was 10 years ago; for another, one cannot look upon the ocean voyage as a period of rest now. HerbertRead, Herbert;c8 Read, whoYale UniversityHerbert Read to lecture at;b2 is just going to New York to lecture at Yale, has been told to be ready to sail on any day after the 21st; but he may have to wait up to three weeks, and if so the dates of his lectures will have to be readjusted accordingly.
I feel at the moment, as if I should like three months complete rest before facing it.
IHale, Emily Jose Milliken (EH's mother)final illness;c9 am further distressed by learning from you that your mother’s illness may be more protracted than was anticipated. This means a fresh adjustment for you, emotionally, to a strain that you may have to bear for months. I am very very sorry for you. Whether it makes it easier or harder to be so very busy at the school as you are, I cannot judge; but I fear your getting over-tired while you have this burden, lest when the burden and the work both cease you will find yourself in a state of utter exhaustion.
2.PrimroseCodrington, Primrose (née Harley) Codrington, née Harley (1908–78), a professional painter – she exhibited work at galleries including the Royal Academy, the New English Art Club and the London Group – was married in 1936 to a professional soldier named Lt.-Col. John Codrington (1898–1991), but divorced in 1942. She lived and worked in Chelsea.
11.JohnHayward, John Davy Hayward (1905–65), editor and critic: see Biographical Register.
1.TSEMme Frenay to John Hayward, 8 Jan. 1946: ‘I have interviewed Madame Frenay today, and was very well impressed. Her ailment was a cancer of the side, she says, but after five months in hospital her doctor declares her cured and fit to work. She is middle-aged, portly, and pleasant in manner and appearance. I have asked Miss Melton to get on to P. Codrington who has the references, and get her either to take them up or let me have the names and addresses. She has been a nursery governess until her illness, before that kept house until her husband died. P.C. told Miss M. the references looked excellent. Has three sons, one of them a farmer in Devon. Lived in this country since the last war. Knows London well and has friends. She wants £3 a week, says she cant do on less, and I should think she would easily get it. Seemed intelligent and claims to be a good cook, also prepared to do sewing etc.’
3.Ezra PoundPound, Ezra (1885–1972), American poet and critic: see Biographical Register.
3.Herbert ReadRead, Herbert (1893–1968), English poet and literary critic: see Biographical Register.
5.LadyVansittart, Lady Sarita Enriqueta (née Ward) Vansittart (1891–1985) – born Sarita Enriqueta Ward – wife of the diplomat Sir Robert Vansittart (1881–1957), Permanent Under-Secretary at the Foreign Office, 1930–8; later Chief Diplomatic Adviser to the British government – was the widow of Sir Colville Barclay (1869–1929).